爸爸的手

已经忘了多久没有牵过爸爸的手，然而我依然记得爸爸有点粗糙手指间流露出来的温暖。

爸爸不是科学家，他的双手却在我的生命中创造了很多奇迹，带领我穿过生活的起起伏伏。

爸爸不是专业的心理学家，他的手却强而有力地打开了我心中的结，解开了我的烦恼。

是爸爸的手，成就了今天的我。是爸爸的手，不管我面对任何困难是都会向我摇摆。

爸爸的手从来没有离开过我，纵然有些时候我让他感到很失望。那是爸爸的手，没有任何人。

亲爱的爸爸，祝你父亲节快乐。愿你的手牵着妈妈的手直到永远。Daddy, I love you...

愿全天下的已经是爸爸，等着做爸爸，不小心做了爸爸的所有爸爸们：父亲节快乐！！

灰色

心情灰灰的, 很不喜欢这种感觉。

我期待橘色的心情... 极度需要。

请给我一个微笑，好吗？

Malaysia Public Holidays & Sarawak State Holidays 2009

I want to post this since early this year in January, somehow I just too busy till I had forgotten it. Am I that busy? Yeah... act to be busy since everybody loves to say they are busy when they forgot to do something.

Definitely, I want to tell everybody that I truly Iove the year of 2009, one of the main reason is the public holidays and state holidays for this year is just too perfect for me. Huhh!! Almost all the holidays are linked to the weekends, so I can enjoy longer holiday. I work 5 days per week, off Saturday & Sunday. If any public holiday falls on Saturday, I won't lost anything as I will have another day of annual leave added automatically to my annual leave account.

Let's see how perfect is the holidays for 2009.

January
1/1 New Year (Thursday) - I took 1 day leave on 2/1, hence I have 4 days off.
26/1-27/1 Chinese New Year (Mon-Tue) - linked to weekend :) off 4 days, took another 3 days leave can enjoy 1 whole week of CNY.

March
9/3 Prophet Mohammad's Bday (Mon)- linked to weekend, off 3 days.

April
10/4 Good Friday (Fri) - linked to weekend, off 3 days.

May
1/5 Labour Day (Fri)- linked to weekend, off 3 days.
9/5 Wesak Day (Sat) - added 1 day annual leave :)

June
1/6 & 2/6 Gawai Festival (Mon & Tue) - linked to weekend, off 4 days.
6/6 Agong's Bday (Sat) - add 1 day annual leave.. hohoho!!

August
31/8 National Day (Mon) - linked to weekend, off 3 days.

September
12/9 S'wak TYT's Bday (Sat) - add 1 day annual leave.
20/9 & 21/9 Hari Raya Puasa (Sun & Mon) - Sunday replacement on Tuesday, off 4 days.

November
27/11 Hari Raya Haji (Fri) - linked to weekend, off 3 days.

November
18/12 Awal Muharram (Fri) - linked to weekend, off 3 days.
25/12 Christmas Day (Fri) - linked to weekend, off 3 days.

Last credict is 1/1/2010 is on the Friday. So good! I am starting to enjoy my 4 days Gawai Festive holiday now, do not envy me if you are not Sarawakian!

"Gaya Guru Gerai Nyamai" to all my Dayak friends.

Kriss Allen

He is the new born 8th season American Idol.
He is Kriss Allen from Arkansas, America.
He is 23 years old newly married student.
He is devout Christian and a worship leader in his church.
He is talent in writing and arranging songs.
He is mellow and claimed himself as a man with not much words.
He has low key with next-door-boy image.
He doesn't know who am I but I know that I admire him.

I just simply love the winner's song, "No Boundaries" that he sang during the final battle with Adam Lambert.

Click here to listen. Isn't it very nice?
No boundaries, between You and me... I pray so!

我是慢热的

如果我真的曾经让任何一个人觉得我很难亲近、我很骄傲、我很冷酷... 非常抱歉，那真的是我的无心之过。在中学到大学时期，我常常给人的第一个印象是我很傲慢，很冷酷，一副很串又自命不凡的模样... 尤其是到了一个新的环境，当大多数的人还是对我陌生时，我就很容易被人产生这种感觉，不是感觉，应该是错觉。冤枉啊！！我一定要极力申冤，事实有时候并不是真实。

我记得在中学时期曾经转校当插班生，一去到新的学校，我就被批说我是冷傲型女生。可悲的是，我并不晓得我给人的第一个印象是那么负面的，直到中学快毕业时大家才跟我吐真言，我才后知后觉。当时，整整半年的时间，几乎没有什么女生和我说话，我被逼变成男人婆，和整大群男生混在一起。哎哟！我知道我是被动的，常常不晓得如何主动和陌生人打交道，请大家多多包涵。

翻开毕业纪念册，发现我其中一位死党的留言，他是我转校进班时坐在我前面的一位男生。我给他的第一个印象是超级无敌的糟糕，我却一直不知道，谢谢他最后让我知道我的不好，虽是无心，但是我还是相信无风不起浪。

他对我的肺腑之言：你给我的第一个感觉真的是非常的不好，当时我对你的观念是，你是个非常非常骄傲的女孩，或许可以称为‘吊价’，而且还是属于看不起人的那一类。尤其是当你和我交谈时的态度更是明显的看见你‘好恋死’的样子。当时，我真的有股冲动想给你一点颜色看看，只是想到你是个毫无人性的家伙，还是免得浪费我的口水。嘿！！

是不是很烂？我看了都有点傻眼！我真的那么糟糕吗？还是他夸张了?? 再看看他接下来对我的评语。

但是，随着时间的流逝，我发现我彻底错了，我对你认识加深时，才发现你的好。坦白告诉你吧！你如今在我和大家的心目中的印象是个乐于助人，心地善良和善解人意的好女孩。认识你我真的是今生无悔，我觉得你很cute, 说话的表情很有趣。可是，你还是有点酷，可能这是你天生的特质吧！.......

对于我身边的每一个人，我确实是掏真心想跟你们交朋友，请不要怀疑我的诚意，虽然我有些时候我在初期会让人有点距离感，我知道我是外冷内热，其实就像一瓶好酒，越久越醇香。

相信我！我只是比较慢热而已。

P/S: 这张太阳花的照片和这个主题有关系吗？答案是：没有！硬要掰，就只能说这照片是我拍的，还有我很爱太阳花。(^_^)

祝我生日快乐

5月10日是我的生日，也刚好是母亲节。祝全天下的妈妈们母亲节快乐，尤其是我妈。妈妈，你的女儿我是很含蓄的，爱你在心口难开，所以想在这里大声对你说：“妈妈，我爱你！”希望你身体健康，天天开心。

至于我的生日，有太多太多的感触，突然很多想法在我脑里翻滚。如果你问我生日快乐吗？我好像也答不上来，只是身边那么多人祝我生日快乐，我没有理由告诉自己我不快乐，除非我把快乐都埋藏起来了。

如果我没有记错，今年应该是我第一次买了一份礼物送给自己过生日，是一支DKNY的手表，之前在新加坡公干时买下的——SG$156。买了有点心痛，所以只能安慰自己说是买给自己当生日礼物，这样就比较好过。

谢谢每一个记得我生日或不记得我生日的朋友。谢谢你们的生日祝福，不管是通过facebook, sms, mms, msn, skype, 电邮，面对面，卡片和礼物的大大小小祝福，早到的，准时到的或是迟到的都好，我都收到了。真的谢谢你们，我很感动，我爱你们。

今年的生日愿望：遇见以撒。

25 facts about Me

1. I am God’s princess; my name is Rebecca and ppl used to call me Becky, Becca, Beck or Reb. I don’t really like to be tagged as Reb, unfortunately ppl who call me Reb are those big bosses from top management which I hardly ask them to change.
2. I studied science but never dream to be a scientist. I am a Food Technologist but if truth be told I wish I am an Accountant.
3. I love white colour, hence I have a lot of white shirts/blouses; I have 2 white babies- my white car （大白）and my white laptop （小白）.
4. I was in a relationship before and turned to be single and available now. I am looking for my Isaac, a man who loves me because of who I am not what I have.
5. I love my 43 kg bony figure, yet a lot of ppl commented I am too skinny. Attention!! I am actually 2kg heavier than Jolin Tsai （蔡依林）.
6. I love to eat fish very much, I think a cat doesn’t love fish like how I love it. This has contributed me to have perfect eyesight. On the other hand, I hate French fries very much, thus I rarely order Fish & Chip.
7. I am Sarawakian, but I do not like Sarawak Kolo Mee which most of the Sarawakian love it enormously. Most of the time you will see me ordering Kueh-Tiao or Meehun.
8. I am a big fan of pork leg especially with thick fat. Mouth-watering when I thought of it, I eat pork leg’s skin since I was 5 (so geli, rite?), currently behave a bit and am trying my best to avoid it as it clogged my arteries and my cholesterol level had exceeded the healthy limit. Goshh!!
9. I love traveling and I am a budget backpacker traveler. I have created my backpacker memories by traveling to Singapore, Bali, Taiwan, Hong Kong, Macao, China, Bangkok, Ho Chih Minh City, Hanoi etc. In no way you can consider traveling with me if you have categorized yourself as luxury traveler.
10. I am an idle blogger, therefore I do not have a fascinating blog. Sorry to all my readers.
11. Before 20 years old, 100% of ppl without any objection said that I was exactly looked like my mom. After 20 years old, a lot of ppl claimed that I am in reality look like my dad. What do you think?
12. I love music. I love Jazz, R & B, soft rock… Sorry to inform that I dislike heavy metal music. I have strong aesthetic taste and enjoying art.
13. I cannot take coffee based drinks, it will efficiently stimulate my brain, and I will be sleepless for whole night without doubt. Hence, you hardly ever find me lepak at places like Starbuck or Coffee Bean. However, occasionally you still will find me sipping fruit juice there with a gang of coffee lovers.
14. Strepsils is my good friend who follows me wherever I go. My throat is supersensitive, I need to swallow Strepsils after taking deep fried or heaty food, otherwise I guarantee will get sore throat within few hours.
15. I love kids. I pray that God will grant me 3 children in future, it will be perfect if 2 of them are twins.
16. I do not fear of insects; do not expect I will scream or jump when I see a cockroach, lizard, etc. I killed lizards before! Anyway, what to proud of? It is only a lizard, man… yeah, not Godzilla!
17. I didn’t eat egg yolk till I reached 21 years old. Even after 21, I can only accept fried egg yolk (not boiled egg yolk) which I need to swallow together with the egg white, if egg yolk alone. Yuckkk… it will stuck in my throat.
18. My dialect is Hakka, beside Hakka I converse well in Hokkien & Cantonese, “half-pail-water” of Teochew (my mom speaks Teochew though she is Hakka) and little bit of Foochow (forced to learn to understand Foochow as I was surrounded by Foochow colleagues in my ex-company). I do speak Bahasa Sarawak, the local Sarawak Malay dialect as I spent time with a lot of Malay when I stayed in government quarters during my childhood time.
19. I am a typical gal who loves shopping very much. My best shopping companion is my sister; we can shop from 10am-10pm, from 1 shopping complex to another shopping complex. Funny eh? If you ask us to jog for more than 30 minutes, we are like totally exhausted. When talk about shopping, we are energetic.
20. Sometime I feel I am too sentimental, I am easily touched and emotionally influenced by words. However, I am slowly transformed myself to be more sensible and realistic. Yeah, there were too many experiences which had grown and brought me into another phase of life.
21. My nickname is fish, yet I don’t know how to swim, what a shame! Frankly, I scare of water, this is generally because I have a horror memory which happened when I was 10 years old, I nearly drowned in the deep sea, but God saved me by sending a stranger to pull me up in time. I absolutely hoping that I can fill in ‘swimming’ as one of my hobbies in future.
22. When I examine a guy, the first thing I see is his fingers.
23. I have a track record of eating 13 pieces of chicken (not including other side dishes)in Hartz Chiken Buffet, but this had became history record as my consumption power has gradually reduced these years especially I started to have gastric. Do not challenge me to eat buffet now, I surrender!
24. One of my aims for this year onwards is to eat less meat, I hope I can be 70-80% vegetarian. Seriously, I am going toward this goal, do remind me if you see me eating too much meat, I know the early translation period would be tough as I used to be a carnivore in past.
25. I know I am imperfect but I believe God changes thing.

风

喜欢吹风的感觉 虽然有点冷 喜欢风吹的感觉 让视线有点模糊

风真能带走伤感 吹走忧愁吗？ 她不并晓得

她只晓得风的速度赶不上她对他的思念。。。

吃点心

因为这一则广告，我又敢敢豁出去了。本来已经答应自己，除非是出门入住酒店有提供buffet早餐，我真的不可以让自己去吃buffet了，因为每一次自己花钱去吃，没有吃到饱到不能再饱，就觉得很不对劲。我的胃真的没有办法承受饱过度的那种负荷，可是美食当前，我进退两难。这一次三川楼推出了All you can eat ala-carte dimsum, 24种菜式点心任点任吃。结果，我还是赴约了，三个女一起大吃大喝。
我们去到时好多人哦！我们是到那种要wait to be seated的状况，这种情形在古晋真的很少见。我还以为我在新加坡。拿了号码之后，很快就轮到我们了，因为我们不介意跟别人搭桌，所以很快。24种菜式点心，我们是看都不看的那种，就每一样点2 paxes。以为要等很久，结果我们的却很快就到了，开动了。

不要问我吃完了的感想，我只有一个字可以形容：饱！！食物是不错，RM18，我觉得我有吃回本吧？？

魂飞魄散

啊啊啊！！～～～好恐怖！！

我必须承认今天我很胆小，没有办法，因为那是我的死穴，偏偏就这样上演在我眼前。

我刚才有很清楚觉得我的身体有种苦苦的味道，因为我的胆子破了。

我也有感觉到有几秒钟，我仿佛是缺氧到没有办法呼吸到差一点要窒息。

我还怀疑着我刚才有没有几秒钟是灵魂出窍？呼！！

到底发生了什么事？？我不能在这里公开说出来，免得被有心之人点了我的死穴。

希望今晚不要做恶梦。耶稣。。。救我！

一炮而红——Susan Boyle

Susan Boyle 本来是一个平凡又陌生的名字，没有多少人认识她。她长得不怎么样，她有学习障碍，她现在是失业人士，目前是某教堂的义工，她已经47岁，未婚。

在上个星期，一场Britain's Got Talent 的歌唱比赛，一首 'I Dreamed A Dream' 让之前完全不看好她的观众和评审个个拍案叫绝，也让她在一夜成名，有多么不可思议。她在比赛时录下的片段被上载到youtube, 经创下几十万的点记率。各大媒体争着要访问她，连The Oprah Winfrey Show也邀请她做访问。

只是一场歌唱初赛，一首歌，没有华丽的装扮和出色的外表，她竟然可以成为全球瞩目的一颗星，就在一夜之间。这是没有人可以预料到的，就连她自己。

天生我才必有用，不要小看我们的内在潜能，谁知道你就是下一位发光发热的闪亮之星？

Kurma Chicken

I cooked this kurma chicken a couple days ago and it was my first time to try to cook this dish, luckily it tasted not bad at all. The only thing I need to take note is I might need to reduce the water to make the soup more concentrated and I believe it will taste nicer. I will try again next time.

It is not hard to cook this kurma chicken and the ingredients needed is also very easy to find, trust me!! Everyone can cook it without fail.


Main ingredients:
1. Chicken - 500 gm
2. Kurma Chicken Mix - 1 packet (40g) - recommend Maggie brand
3. Potato - 200 gm
4. Coconut milk - 150 ml
5. Sliced onion - 200 gm

Other ingredients (optional):
1. Ladies fingers - as needed
2. Tomato - as needed

Procedures:
1. Heat 5 table spoon oil and stir-fry the sliced onion.
2. Add Kurma Chiken Mix (pre-mixed with 3 table spoon water) and fry until aromatic.
3. Add 500g chicken pieces, potato halves and other ingredients with 2 cups of water and slimmer for 20 minutes.
4. Add in the thick coconut milk and slimmer for another 1 minutes.

That's it.

无底洞

明明知道那是深不可测的无底洞 却义无反顾往掉入深渊 摔得粉身碎骨 得不到一丝一点的同情 只有别人投来鄙视的眼光。。。

傻瓜！

BBQ 烧烤会

好久没有BBQ了，因为猪美女刚好又回来古晋度假几天，SP和小妹就召集我们去他们家BBQ. 我是带着喉咙痛刚刚痊愈，还在咳嗽的状态下赴约。没错，我又不小心病倒了，在去新加坡公干的整个星期，我差点就要失声。可是，我有进步了，因为我这次没有去看医生，也没有吃antibiotic,只是吃了很多Vitamin C，Strepsils, 枇杷膏和各式各样的凉茶，就这样病好了。Thanks God！

如果你问我吃了那么多BBQ烧烤有没有让我的病情恶化？答案是没有，因为我很小心照顾我那super sensitive的喉咙。那晚天不作美，竟然下起细细的雨，我们只能把BBQ的地点从原本计划在SP豪宅的天台改到他们家的车房。

BBQ就等于肉食大餐，我们当晚都化身为和狮子没有两样的carnivore, 好恐怖。看她们完全不顾形象，拼命撕裂肉块。
猪美女也为我们准备了一瓶酒，我们不是喝酒，是品酒。喝酒是大量喝，我们只是一时兴致来个小杯的。这支Sheridan’s酒很special，黑白参半的，黑色的是咖啡和15%酒精的结合，白色的是含有15%酒精的Vanilla。当这一切溶在一起，味道很好，也很特别。我们每人就这样品尝了一小杯。

Cheers...干了这一杯，为我们的未来喝彩。未来的一切，都是好好的。Gambateh!

Shopping in OneTJ

我对电子产品的兴趣没有很大，所以逛电子产品购物城不是我的兴趣。我在KL念书几年只去过两次Low Yat Plaza，和两次在PWTC举办的PC Fair，都是因为刚好真的有东西要买才去，而我没有很成功培养到去电子购物城或PC Fair window shopping的兴趣。

老实说，我在古晋从来没有去过PC Fair，不要觉得不可思议，这是千真万确的。OneTJ 是古晋唯一的电子购物城，我去过的次数比去Low Yat Plaza的还多一次。这算是进步，因为OneTJ才开了几个月罢了，我就已经创了3次的记录。而且第一次去真的纯粹window shopping, 真的有进步。最近一次去是因为OneTJ有举办电脑促销，我就趁机去扫货。不要以为买电脑或电子产品是男人的专利。我觉得我也不赖，短短半小时，这是我的战利品。

1. Notebook Bag - RM99.00 我还是喜欢背包式的。
2. Samsung LCD Monitor - 20" RM459 我需要更广的视野。

3. Head Phone - RM36.00

4. Nokia Handphone - RM135, 我的secondary handphone （大家都流行拿两粒手机）宣告死亡，最近钱包缩水，只能买这种便宜的手机先顶一下。可怜！

Joanna 王若琳

开始听王若琳的歌好几个月了，可是却没有时间好好推荐她的专辑，我发现我真的喜欢上这位很特别的女生，她的才华是上帝赐给她的，能听见她灵魂的好声音真的叫我好感动。Joanna，她的声音真的好美，能让我轻而易举地感动，那是瞬间的感动，没有费一丝的气力。基本上，我比较难真正很喜欢一位女歌手，我想王若琳是继陈绮贞和张悬之后，能触动我心弦，感染我情绪的一把好声音。


我是后知后觉的，去年1月当王若琳推出她的第一张专辑《Let's start from here》，我其实没有太多注意到她，真正爱上她反而是相隔一年之后的同名专辑《Joanna & 王若琳》。然而，当我重新听 let's start from here 这首歌，我好爱好爱。

或许有些人并不晓得Joanna原来是台湾名制作人王治平老师的女儿，或许更多人不知道其实她只有20岁。不管她是谁，我只想和你们分享她独特的嗓音和她的好音乐。如果你也喜欢爵士音乐，我想你会和我一样爱上这把慵懒的声音。

着迷于Tanjung Aru的夕阳

我以为我不会再对沙巴这块土地有任何的眷恋，其实我错了，我依然心动于亚庇美丽的日落。上个月去亚庇是我阔别五年后再次踏入这座有点陌生却曾经是充满回忆的城市。我以为我会有百感交集的心情，然而我却讶异我竟然可以如此平静。

Tanjung Aru的夕阳还是一样迷人，还是一样扣人心悬，还是一样让我如痴如醉。我只想要几分钟，让我好好陶醉在这样美丽的日落景色当中。那一天，天空的云好美好绚丽，长长的就好象流星般滑过天际，让我舍不得把目光移开，一直抬头仰望天空。望着望着，发现幸福离我愈来愈近。如果爱的极限是天空，如此遥不可及让人没有办发伸手触摸，那我只能不停仰望。

刹那间，思绪变得有点凌乱，在那个时刻我好想找个可以让我思念的人，可是我找不到。因为，在很久以前我已经决定不再想你了。被掏空的位子，找不到可以填满的主人，茫茫人海中以为他就是我期待很久的那个人，最后发现原来他和你一样，只不过是在边缘徘徊的过客。

我发现我对亚庇还是很陌生的，是我选择性忘记那里的一草一木，还是我只把焦点都停留在你的身上而忽略了其他美好的东西。我记得我很喜欢这里的日落，我记得我很喜欢这里海岛，我记得我很爱记这里的海鲜。就这样，其他的我不想记住，因为那已经不重要。

亚庇神山，我一次又一次错过你，记得我们的约定，我下一次再来就要征服你。等我！

T-shirt Design Competition

The T-shirt design competition is the first activity for blessed young adult in the year of 2009. We had a fun and amusing T-Shirt Competition on this Thursday night in our Church.

This is our group’s T-shirt.

Our group- The Truthful, The Favoured.

I intensely feel that most of the young adults in Blessed Church are just like typical Singaporean/Malaysian as we are all experts in ‘last minute work’ & the most important is we are all kiasu. Yeah! We candidly admit it.

Our Pastor was very kind of giving us something like 3 months to prepare for it as he considered we need time for brainstorming, designing, choosing the t-shirt material, find the printing factory, printing, choosing models, practicing the catwalks etc, moreover we only manage to meet each other once a week during the cell group gathering. However, along these 3 months, apparently we were more concerned of celebrating Christmas, New Year, Chinese New Year, Valentine’s Day & other activities, we almost forgot we have a T-shirt competition until it was reminded by Pastor 2 weeks before the competition. We were certainly practicing the last minute creativeness and it only took us less than 10 days to complete everything. Yup, everything from brainstorming till performing in the event, it was all last minute works yet it turned up with a lot of surprises. Thanks God!

How kiasu we were? Well… When come to any competition, we will keep our mouths zipped; nobody is allowed to spread any single detail to other group members no matter how close you are with that fellow. Everybody will kill their brain cells to come up with outstanding ideas and hoping to win the judge’s heart.

Here are some pictures to share. Pictures are curi-ed from Jackie & Alan.

Did we win any prizes? We were not the best, we only grabbed the 2nd prize for male model and 2nd prize of group performance.

Anybody interested in buying our T-shirt? We use different languages to indicate the word of ‘Truthful/Honest’ which is our group’s name. I think it is very appropriate to wear to work if your company doesn’t require you to wear formal attire. I think your boss will like you very much as you are telling him/her you are an honest person in 26 different languages. Sound cool, right?

妹妹结婚了

2009年2月21日是我妹妹出嫁的大日子。婚礼在亲朋戚友的祝福下进行。很温馨、很幸福、很感动。
每当我看见身边的亲戚朋友，甚至不曾相识的陌路人披上婚纱走进红地毯的那刹那，我都觉得好感动，每一次都有想掉泪的冲动。这种感动和看见宝宝呱呱落地是一样的，有种没有办法用言语来言喻的情绪。

妹妹结婚我的感动比见证其他人的婚礼还更深，她是我们家第一位出家的女儿，我其实可以看见爸爸和妈妈脸上真情流露的感动。我以为妈妈会感动到落泪，可是她却出乎预料表现得坚强。妹妹出嫁，我知道妈妈一定非常不习惯，因为她是长时间在家住的女儿。 我相信不只妈妈，我们全部都会很不习惯。

我这位还是单身的姐姐在婚礼全程就成了被访问的对象，大家都很关心我什么时候才要结婚，而我只能一笑置之。这是我预料得到的事，谢谢大家的关心，我还在期待我的以撒，他还没有出现。

SP § Ｄａｐｈｎｉｅ，愿你们新婚愉快，一辈子都沐浴在幸福快乐之中。

Happy Valentine's Day

这是爱飘扬的季节，这是玫瑰盛开的季节，这是把爱说出口的季节。。。

献给：

曾经爱过，正在爱，错过爱，来不及爱和寻找爱的你们。

中国导演张艺谋说过的很经典的一句话：“什么是爱？如果你解释得了，那已经不是爱”。

上帝说：爱是恒久忍耐，又有恩慈；爱是不嫉妒；爱是不自夸，不张狂，不做害羞的事，不求自己的益处，不轻易发怒，不计算人的恶，不喜欢不义，只喜欢真理；凡事包容，凡事相信；凡事盼望，凡事忍耐，爱是永不止息。（哥林多前书 13：4-7）

祝福大家情人节快乐！Jesus loves you & so do I... (^_^)

我的以撒，你在哪里？在什么时候我才能亲口对你说声那么简单的一句：“情人节快乐”？

元宵

元宵节的到来，我们必须要接受一个事实，就是农历新年就这样落幕了。有没有人因为这样而开始期待明年‘虎’视眈眈的新年？我想，没有那么夸张吧？

这个新年我过得蛮特别的，为什么呢？

1. 我初一开始生病到元宵节，最恐怖的是事到如今我竟然还没有痊愈。>_<

2. 我在过年期间去了5次的诊所，有我被人载去看病，有我载人去看病，也有我自己载自己去看病。

3. 我喝少过200ml的汽水，我去拜年不是喝白开水就是喝茶。

4. 我尝试做以为很有把握的cheese cake，结果是宣布失败！更失败的是根本不知道失败的原因是什么。Conclusion是好失败的一个Food Technologist。

5. 我今年只收到5个红包，好少！:'( 数量比去年少，可是$比去年多，有点小安慰。全部都拿去奉献了，相信上帝会加倍祝福我。

6. 我今年初八才开工，这是历年来休息最久的一次。拿annual leave当sick leave用，悲哀！

7. 我只吃了一粒红柑，并不是我害怕在网上流传的红柑有虫事件，乃是我本来就不是红柑的‘粉丝’。

8. 我今年没有去戏院看任何一部贺岁电影。

9. 在经济不景气的情况，老板还是在过年前3天发了花红给我们，很满足。让我可以包个大红包给我的父母。

10. 我发现了不为人知的秘密，不能说的秘密。。。

分享一则来自Steven的手机简讯：

‘ 春节过了，请停下来回头看一看，神的恩典一路相伴，闭上眼睛用心去感觉神的爱从不曾离开。抬起头你将发现乌云背后还是蓝天, 每一次跌倒站起来要更刚强，相信不论明天如何，神的恩典够你用，神的应许从不离开，新的一年里常与神同在。。。祝元宵节快乐’

Happy Chap Goh Meh...

I feel...

Sad, cheerless, heartbreaking, gloomy, distressing, somber, dismal, painful, throbbing, tear-jerking…

Dear Father God,
Every day I tell You, I am grateful. I tell You that I will trust, that I will not fear, that I will rest in Your love.
Then why, do I run, and quake, and seek answers where there are none?
I say I fear of darkness but more often I hide from Your light which I know it can sustain me...Help me Lord! I need You.

生病过新年

过年前，我一直期待这个牛年会带给我什么样的惊喜。结果是我大病一场，这算是惊喜吗？

我其实很少在过新年期间生病，几乎是没有这种记录。就偏偏在今年，还是在大年初一就开始生病。起初以为只是小病一场，没有什么好大惊小怪，结果我在连续3天赶场之后，初三晚上全面性瘫痪在床上，初四早上宣告失声。

我以为我已经很照顾自己了，去拜年只喝白开水，凡是煎炸的食物或是我觉得会让人发热气的东西都坚持一概不入口，strepsils不离口，结果还是逃不过强悍细菌的攻击。

这是我家摆在桌上的年货，不要问我哪一样好吃，除了蛋糕，我几乎都没有吃过其他的，吃过的也是食之无味。我的心愿是快快好起来，我想啃这些看起来好好吃的零食哦！

已经是初六了，我还没有吃过肉干，还没有咬到开心果，鱿鱼丝也还没有碰到，这像话吗？

Happy牛Year

Mooo...Moo...新的一年，这里有我满满的祝福。愿大家牛转乾坤庆团圆。

我的家人：谢谢爸爸妈妈养育了这样的一个我。在这特殊的日子里, 所有的祝福都带着我们的爱，愿这爱弥漫我们家的每一个角落，感染每一个人。我一直都知道，不管发生什么事，家永远是我最想靠岸的避风港。祝福我的家人一切安好。

我的朋友：感谢你们陪我一同笑过、哭过、疯过、精彩过。。。 但愿新的一年大家都活得更精彩。

我的同事：经济不好的状况，我们还能在同一艘船共同进退，很难得。愿大家新的一年更上一层楼。一起加油！

我爱的人和爱我的人：大家新年蒙福蒙恩。今年过得比往年好。

我的以撒：你什么时候才出现？如果你已经在我身边，可不可以和我说一声：新年快乐...？

Online Shopping

No matter my shopping purpose is for CNY, to reward myself for working hard all the while or just because of I cannot resist the great sales. I certainly agree that I am a typical gal who loves shopping very much. After the first phase, second phase, third phase till “N” phase of shopping, I found that the shopping satisfaction is just like infinity, no brake to stop it.

My shopping wave was sustained from common shopping in shopping complex to online shopping and I have had my first experience to purchase apparels through website last week. This is utterly a spanking new experience for me and I was astonished that I have done it. Apart from purchasing Air Asia ticket and hotel booking through website, I have never keen to make any other online purchase which is popular lately particularly among the young generation. Yeah, you can category me as an old-fashioned gal, I don’t mind.

Once I want to purchase something, it would be the greatest if I can see the actual thing, touch it, feel it, and try it… to ensure it’s really fitted me. Hence, I truly cannot accept any web love such as to start a relationship with a man whom I never seen and feel the actual of him.

But, but & but… this initial regulation of mine was void when I have completed my first online purchase and bought 2 blouses which you can view in the pictures below.
Left picture is from seller and the right one is the actual apparel I received. These 2 items cost me RM53 + RM4 of delivery fee by Pos Express. Online shopping is always cheaper than the real market, provided you can take the risk of likelihood to get a product which is not appropriate in size & quality or somewhat different from what you have examined in the pictures.

I know it won’t be the last and the only online barter I made yet more to come. I found it is cool, fun and enjoyable. One very significant thing to clarify, it is only valid for product and not for man.

中原小馆

好久没有诉说我的馋嘴日记，其实原因很简单，很多时候就是只顾着吃，忙着吃，而忘了拍照。
有几次要去坐落在Premier 101，靠近Choice Daily Supermarket的‘中原小馆’，可是每次都遇不到对的时间而一拖再拖。终于在昨天中午时间跟Teresa和Wenny去了。

计划好去吃简单的Brunch，结果来到这里因为没有Ala Carte Menu, 演变成我们吃了一顿比想象中丰富很多的Brunch。本来有意要离开此地到别处找吃，可是我们实在好饿，就决定点菜吃好了。

1。中原抄牌炒饭——RM6。去到新的地方，不知道要点什么饭类或面类，看见有‘招牌’字眼的很大可能性是好吃的。我点！没有失望。饭粒好吃就是上等的炒饭了，这里我最先评估的，再来就是配料够味。
2。Maimite鸡（去骨）——RM13。Chef's special, 所以就想试试。也是不错吃，有点像宫保鸡丁，淋上不知道什么名堂的酱，不辣。

3。Wenny点的双菇拼盘——RM12。我是mushroom lover, 简直是合我口味。里面还有我很爱的莲藕。
4。中原招牌奶油虾（去壳）——RM18。虾很新鲜，弹性十足，过瘾哦！不要看见好像小小一份，是有10条虾，算是蛮大条的虾，只是因为去壳，看起来很小份。

5。鲜果汁——RM5/杯。

食物口味中规中矩、价钱中规中矩、地点中规中矩。。。想和中规中矩的朋友中规中矩地吃一餐，可以考虑来这里。我个人觉得还不赖的，会不会是饿的关系？

营业时间：11:00am-2:30pm, 5:00pm-10:00pm.

Season of Ang Pao

Dong dong qiang… Chinese New Year is approaching. Everyday when I switch on the radio, I listen to the CNY’s songs; when I drove along the road, I saw a lot of red tang-lungs hanging here and there; when I dropped by in any Supermarket to buy something, I saw tones of mandarin oranges and loads of other CNY’s goods. Yup, I am not staying in jungle therefore I cannot isolate myself from these CNY’s atmospheres. Honestly, it has effectively accelerated my mood to look forward this CNY.

During the Christmas season, I mentioned that the second I anticipate the most is the feeling of unwrapping the gift and find out what is enclosed. Towards the Chinese New Year, should I say the thing I foresee the most is the feeling of opening the angpao and discover how much money contained?… Wahaha! Frankly, it was undoubtedly the moment I awaited for during my childhood time and it was my most vital objective to celebrate Chinese New Year.

Nevertheless, when I started to work, this mood has gradually reduced as I happened to receive less than 10 ang-paos per CNY. So pity of me! If I am not mistaken; I got 6 last year… yeah! Only 6! ! I cannot or to be more precise is I don’t want to visualize how is the condition this year since everybody is tighten up their stomachs due to the decisive economy crisis.

Basically, the way of giving out angpao in West Malaysia and East Malaysia is fairly different. I noticed this dissimilarity when I was studying in KL.

In West Malaysia, as long as you are still single & unmarried, you indeed have a right to get an angpao, and you can accept it without any awkwardness. In East Malaysia like Kuching, some families set their specs such as to give angpao only to the children under 12 years old, some with higher tolerance, their target will be below 21 or if you are still a student. Hence, a people like me, more than 21, worked for few years… the probability of getting angpao is approximately equal to zero.

More to the point, in West Malaysia, you are not only entitled to receive an angpao if you are still unmarried, and additionally you can get angpao from any of the married couples if you visit their houses during CNY. Huhhh…how marvelous & amazing! Sorry for my sakai-ness, it might be an ordinary practice in West Malaysia, but it is tremendously exotic in my place. I was told by my coursemate in few years back, if he is sooo good luck to go for visiting during CNY, e.g. from 1st day till 5th day or more, maintain 10 houses per day, he definitely can gain a handsome angpao’s wealth.

In East Malaysia, if you are more than 12 years old, you barely get any angpao from the people who are not your close relatives or not a very close friend of your parents. In West Malaysia, even you are 21, you still can get angpao from your classmate’s mom, from your friend’s mom, from your friend’s friend’s mom, from your friend’s neighbour, from your neighbour’s relative etc… or anybody you might dunno them but he/she is married and you just unintentionally follow your friend’s friend to visit them. All you need to do is just wish them Gong Xi Fa Cai with your biggest grin.

Good or bad? I believe this culture is only advantageous to unmarried populace; it would be a burden to those married couples. Yet it sounds fascinating to me, perhaps I should consider celebrating CNY in West Malaysia once before I get married.

汪洋一片的古晋

终于是雨过天晴了。好想念阳光的味道。

一连几日的大雨，阔别了四年之久的大水灾再次来到古晋。多个低洼的地区经不起大雨的洗礼，形成一片汪洋。灾黎们仿佛有了之前的大水灾经验而变得比较镇定，少了昔日的恐慌。然而，苦不堪言的表情仍然写在脸上。

在市区方面，水灾最严重的区域是石角，那是我老爸生于斯、长于斯的土地。由于老爸工作的关系，30多年前就搬离到另外一区，我们从小就没有住在那一区而不曾体验过水灾时的实况。（怎么说到我好像很想亲身体验？）

今天的情况已经有好转了，希望灾黎们可以赶快回到他们的家园。农历新年就快到了，希望上天能给古晋一个阳光灿烂的新年。

石角区的水灾情况。通往老爸老家的大路完全没有办法行走。
看见这样的情景，是不是欲哭无泪？有家归不得。

p/s 1: 谢谢来自西马半岛的朋友来电关心问候，虽然你们打来都是问我有没有被大水淹没。。。我很好，还没有被淹没。哈哈！

p/s 2: Photos from Edwin Lee

“裁员”滚滚来

美国在去年陷入经济风暴，牵动了全世界。‘裁员’这两个字仿佛成为了IT、金融和电子业不可忽略的重要词汇。就像噩梦一样恐怖，也像计时炸弹般危险。根据资料显示，美国现在去年有大约260万人在失业，也是自1945年以来最严重的一次失业率。如此动荡不安的经济环境，如同海啸般无情地蔓延至世界各地。好像没有一个人能不受影响，分别只有影响的程度到哪里？

最近和朋友聊工作时，已经不是像以前那样问：“你最近的工作顺利吗？”，取而代之的standard问题是：“你的公司有裁员吗？”真的，金融风暴的情况下，经济衰退已经是一个事实，造成裁员风也越来越激烈，老板们只能挥大刀“斩人”以节省开支。

在很多人因为这次突然侵袭的金融风暴而失业，我真的要由衷献上感恩。我庆幸我的公司没有受到太大的影响，很多公司裁员，我们偏偏还聘请人。我们的薪水照样加，我们的Bonus照样拿。我想，我要感恩自己在食品公司（面粉厂）上班，庆幸自己是Food Technologist，只要还有人吃面包、吃面、吃饼干。。。我们就不会倒。 可是我想不应该高兴得太早，很多事其实就很难去预料。

衷心为被裁员而陷入困境的每一个人祷告，要相信不管是什么样的逆境，只要抱着希望，一定会有明天。

还是要很流行的问一下：‘你的公司有裁员吗？’

我想说话而已

每一次来到新的一年，多多少少就会开始缅怀过去。回忆的东西不一定是美好的，也不竟然是遗憾的。

其实我最爱回忆的往事是学生时代的青涉岁月，无忧无虑，好多欢笑。学生时代好像都没有什么好后悔的事，除了我选择念理科之外。其实，都不是我选的，马来西亚的教育制度怎么那么怪，拿很多个A就非要选读理科不可吗？我觉得我没有很适合念理科，因为我现在希望自己是一位Accountant远远多于自己是埋在实验室里苦干的Food Technologist。可是我觉得自己又很矛盾，从Form 4开始念理科一直到Form 6，再到大学。。。我才有机会结识到所谓‘怪胎’的同学朋友，陪我一起走到今天。严格来讲，我好像又没有很后悔念理科。

我有很多同学因为我一时Digi，一时Celcom，一时Maxis而和我失去联络。从我有手机开始，我已经换了6次的电话号码，我不知道这样算多吗？不过怎样说都好，我也是超过三年没有更换号码了，因为学乖了。只要现在你的手机里面存的号码是D公司的号码，最后四粒号码是5919，没错！不要怀疑，是我的号码。我有一位同学很好笑，每一次我换手机号码都会sms通知她，她从来就没有把我以前用过的号码删除掉，只是换了不同的名字来记录。比如最早用Rebecca，然后用Becky，再来就是Becca等等，很多是她自己发明的。到最后她根本不知道到底我最新的号码是哪一个了，就干脆不联络我算了。这样的事如果让法官来判，是谁的错？因为她说是我的错。真的啦！之前的号码已经没有一个可以找得到我了，如果你不小心也有像她这样的习惯，拜托可以全部删除掉。

我发现在佳节的公假去古晋有大减价的购物商场走走很有益处。因为我在25/12/08和1/1/09这两天公假就无意中捡回好几个失去联络的同学。古晋很小，真的可以不妨一试。自从古晋有了TheSpring和Boulevard这两个大型商场，在非常公假的公假，很多本来是没有机会交错的平行线就因此遇上了。别说是我，连我妈也是在那两天和几个她N年没有见面的朋友见到面。

我发现我还不习惯活在2009年，我是慢热的，给我一点时间好吗？

跟2009年说：Hello

告别了充满感叹号的2008年，小心翼翼踏入2009年。2008年已经落幕，属于我的故事却没有因此而落幕，进入全新的2009年，我期待看见自己更精彩的乐章，为我的生命烙印更多不一样的故事。

2009年，我希望：

1. 我的家人朋友，身边的人包括我自己，身体健康，快乐多一点，伤心少一点。
2. 我在事业上尝试不一样的东西，希望自己的technical知识能提升。
3. 继续背包旅行，继续流浪到不同的国度。
4. 脸上的青春痘不要再长出来了。
5. 胆固醇指数可以下降到正常的水平。（不要怀疑，我真是是高胆固一族！）
6. 自己不会上瘾玩facebook, 我刚刚加入成为FB的大家庭（是有点落伍 ^_^），恐怖看见到那么多火热分子。
7. 油价不要上升，物价一定要降低，世界的经济可以赶快复苏。
8. 开始做运动（去年的愿望），我给自己一年的藉口了。
9. 利百佳可以预见她的以撒。
10. 自己是合神心意的孩子，继续进步、继续变得更好，一辈子都要荣耀神。

祝大家新年快乐... a very blessed year ahead.